8:34 AM

if you could see me

Posted by soffee

i walked again.. passing everything you had before.. i almost forgot how do you smell like.. i let my self lie down at the living room.. the place that you always sleep while watch football.. tried to remember what you said about this house.. walk out and stand again at the balcony.. replacing my self to be you.. yes, i found the noise.. the noise make me get angry and mad when we talk every night before you sleep.. before you out for dinner.. opened the store.. i stand and look for the rubbish that people made in there.. i saw your photo. the photo remind me about us.. how can i over you when remembering you is the most lovely thing i ever had in my life... how can i kiss him when i was thinking the hot kiss from you? how can i laugh if your laugh is the most i miss? how can i sleep without silent if the pillow its not your arm.. if you could see me.. i wanna say good bye even its hurt me, even its killing me, even we hate the words so much.. if you could see me, i wanna give you good bye kiss, good bye hug.. i wanna see you go till you look small than basically. what should i tell him when he ask me who the one i miss the most? what should i say when he ask me can i be the loyal and love him only? what i suppose to tell this world that i'm currently out with someone but my mind is only think about you? i'm scared...scared to over you... i'm scared, scared to forget your sweet smell.. i am so scared, scared if god take my memories of you... i do scared.. and i'm not ready.. again, i am sick..coz i miss you like hell.. i just know that i am sick now days coz missing you... thats all! if you could see me...

12:58 AM

PERSONALITY TEST @ QUIZ BOX

Posted by soffee

Type the names of five different persons that you know and associate with the following colors, one person for one color:

Yellow

Orange

Red

White

Green


Here is the analysis:

  • The one who will never forget you is IBRAHIM.
  • The one who you can consider as your real friend is AIMAN.
  • The one you really love is SUZIE.
  • This may be your soul mate: SAQAR.
  • The one you will remember for the rest of your life is ESAM.
p/s:
hahahhaha.. surprise.. i just simply peak this quiz and fill
up the name coz the color remind me of them..
ermm.. i just cant accept the soul mate..
i guess no body know about him.. only me and GOD. if he da one..
i might be late go to work everyday!

1:01 AM

TAG~

Posted by soffee

Been tagged from BAI.. Since i lost my note book, the only computer i had is belong from VADS. So, i'm gonna complete her tag using my computer at work. Lucky got own work place. So i do have own folder here... Thanx BAI!

RULES
  1. Go to your photos folder in your computer
  2. Go to the 6th folder of photos.
  3. Go to the 6th picture in that folder.
  4. Put the picture on your blog and description of it.
  5. Invite six friends to join the challenge.
  6. Link them in your blog and let them know they have been challenged.
hahahaha.... sowie!!!!!!!!!! too much photo of him in my folder now days... hahahahaha... who is him? i guess all of u knew that. let me introduce who is him.. he is edward cullen in my vampire's life. the best, the cool, the smart, the lovely vampire i ever know... this photo taken when he shoot on Twilight's movie. nothing can discribe him more coz my feeling cant be figure out how much i want him and let him transfer the venom to my body.. if i can choose what kind of life i want.. i'm gonna say, i wanna be in his life. if i can choose who is the one i wanna married, i wanna say.. he is the one i want... if i just can change being human to vampire, i would like him do that for me... no doubt!

the victim is:-
mumu jaan
aiman baby
fifi
lixam nixam
hid don't lie
cece~

7:29 PM

US AGAINST THE WORLD

Posted by soffee

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you, baby
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war
I'll be fighting with you, baby
Cause I know if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground
If the boat is sinking, I know you won't let me drown

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the world
The world, the world, ohh

Now if I'm lost at sea 7 days I'm not alone
If I'm holding you, you, you, you, you
And if it all end's, everybody in the world is gone
I'll be standing with you, baby

And if it's the last breath I take
I'll leave my kiss my with you
If there's a wall between us, baby
I know I'll break through

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world

Nothing's stronger now than you and I
Cause your love is all I got
And this ain't never gon' stop
No, whoa
There's no distance here when we're apart
Come on in from the cold
Lay your head on my shoulder
Ride like a soldier
I'm a stay right here

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you, you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you, you, you
Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the world
The world, the world, ohh

6:04 PM

MISS YOU DEAR LOVELY FRIEND

Posted by soffee

WE MISS YOU. WE MISS YOU. WE MISS YOU. WE FUCKING CRAZY MISS YOU DEAR LOVELY FRIEND. WE JUST KNOW THIS.....

7:29 PM

ALWAYS BE MY BABY

Posted by soffee

hey lovely friend... i'm sorry for everything i done to you..anything make u felt sad, unhappy when u always be with me.. i just don't meant it. and never want hurting u no matter what. thank you coz u always be with me since esam go. thank you that u never put your phone down when i on my way to grand mother funeral. thank you for teaching me read and speak arab back. thank you for the warm hug when i lost and empty. thank you for being friend, best friend, brother and lovely man for me and others. today, after 3 pm.. u not anymore here with us. no smell, no smile, no laugh, no voice... nothing.. just memories left... today, after 3 pm... i cant dial your number anymore... i cant call you crazy man.. i cant go there hug u.. i was thinking now.. can i just walk at Pavilion, look at ELE'S CAFE with my smile... can i just do that without u here? who i suppose to talk when i need book.. when i want to share something.. who? who did i suppose to hug when i miss someone? i don't know why, but my heart, my instinct remind me to get ticket to Melbourne.. I know its not because of someone there.. and now i found, the ticket is actually to visit u there... hey, no matter what.. u part of me, i'm gonna see you before Ramadan.. insya-allah. thank you for treating me like your younger sister. thank you for taking care of me. thank you for every single moment that we had together. sorry, i don't have any gift to u. but the ring, i always carry i give to u. with my name and his name. no point to still keep. its belong to u now. close your eye, hold it.. we around u..trust me, u can feel the love even we far.. i just cant stop u this time coz i know this is the best for u... see u in Adeline soon! LOVE AND ALWAYS IN LOVE WITH YOU BEST FRIEND
We were as one, babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free, yeah
So I'm letting you fly
'cause I know in my heart, babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry, no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave, girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably,
You'll be back again
'Cause you know in your heart, babe
Our love will never end, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back, girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder, oh, oh
I know that you'll be right back, baby
Oh baby, believe me, it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way, you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my, my baby

(You'll always be a part of me)
You will always be
(I'm part of you indefinitely
(Girl, don't you know you can't escape me)
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby
(And we'll linger on)
We will linger on
(Time can't erase a feeling this strong
(No way, you're never gonna shake me
(Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby)

Always be my baby...
i just don't know why... but when i sing this song... i found this song suitable to u.. and here, i want u know.. how far we go.. how far the body fly... u always be my baby, best friend...

10:36 PM

MY V DAY

Posted by soffee

felt so bored... but i'm kinda of lovely girl today. wear red shirt... excited go to office. even i know today still like yesterday... nothing can change me even he there... errmmm... he so busy what else i can say. its ok.. no him life still go on. why so worried right? can finish cases so fast and make me turn my self to being bored silly girl.. was thinking what i can do if he my Mr. V today. where we both go.. did he still wanna hold my hand like the last night we had.. did he still wanna talk to me.. did we have super duper crazy day together... wonder..wonder..wonder.. but he to busy with the old man.. erkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can u just please replace me with him? shit!!! forget it.

my plan suppose to be walk with mak su and pak su... but they ready book ticket for movie. so, i cant join them.. never mind laa.. i still can walk alone. i was so excited.. and i know bukit bintang not the correct place for me. i will get hurt easy there. but i am so stubborn person.. my 1st step there... i saw 3 white man crossing road.. and i just ignoring them.. at my ear, abdullah was talking something dirty story and request.. what ever, i know ili not around u start being disgust man now..

and suddenly.. guess what.. 'excuse me, can you tell us how to go to bukit bintang plaza...' hahahahaha... the 3 white man ask me.. errmm.. i never bother to them.. not really focus.. but, since so free and abdullah sure late.. i just offering my self to help them.. because of me.. they change their trip to Bali. hahaha... see how psycho i am.. we talk, we walk.. we get know each others. everything just perfect.. we walk to get few things at law yat... and... i just pulse few second. ask my self.. my V day not so bad.. i date 3 man on the same time. we laugh, we eat, we talk and sharing story together... can u guys do it? can u have my moment? no right? a'ha... i just too lucky! thank god.. like i said before... no him life still go on...

this is the V DAY gift

not so bad right?

7:26 AM

ANYTHING FOR YOU

Posted by soffee

i can't be so selfish to let them hurt and suffer because of my desire.. i just cant see any tear and blood drop at their land because of my desire.. i'm honestly know, that i can't do anything except pray that they gonna be safe. but here, i kill my desire to make sure my money not gonna help them kill you dear PALESTINE'S...

4:27 AM

TOMORROW IS 21st JANUARY 2009

Posted by soffee

MAYBE SHE HAVE THIS??

OR MAYBE SHE BEAUTY LIKE THIS?

ERRMMM.. CONGRATS!!!!

4:24 AM

without you

Posted by soffee

Without you i live it up a lil more everyday.
Without you i'm seeing myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When i watched you walk away
Well i never thought i'd say im fine without you.

Cause something changed you've been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that im ready to let you leave

I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When i watched you walk away
Well i never thought i'd say im fine without you

I just want to be alone tonight
I just want to take a lil breather

6:05 PM

WONDERING HOW NICE SEATTLE

Posted by soffee

THE ORIGINAL STARBUCKS CAFE

STREET CAR AT PIONEER SQUARE

PIONEER SQUARE

A NARROW STREET NEAR PIKE PUBLIC MARKET

SEATTLE PUBLIC LIBRARY

SEATTLE SKYLINE

1:41 AM

what the stupid thing i done...

Posted by soffee

i take a move.. moving my ass and steps..
to ili i inform.. that i'm gonna meet some one last 4 night...
its just coincident.. without planing..
surprise!!!! yes.. i done do it...
and, what the stupid thing i done is..
i just cant focus to that man..
even he hot.. even he got good smell.. even he tall.. even he prefect..
I GUESS!!!!
and the stupid thing is.. i just eating my mash mellow and enjoy the night with the hot coco
errmm.. i am stupid..
my heart want my self get out and continue the life like normal person
but my mind keep remind me about him
and my whole day which is 24hours with his shadow..
what the hell is this??? and i don't know...
i just want continue my life and be normal person
i want meet someone new.. i want have connection with new person
and i do want to be love and in love(this what i and mumu always said)
his shadow following me.. even at night(supposedly no shadow right?)
if last time i'll pray he get good life and happy there..
and now i still do the same thing.. yes, honestly...
i do want your life better.. and i don't want you down or regret...
but, on the same time i don't want replacing you coz for me..
nobody can be you.. which is.. you still part of me
and listen.. not replacing you doesn't mean.. you the one i want
i just cant do that and i want my life back without your shadow..
i want my mind stop remind me about you and my heart can accept anyone new
this is what i want.. not rushing.. but at least.. i can enjoy every moment in my life
even you there enjoy your new life with her... soon

5:26 AM

my wonderful night

Posted by soffee

i just cant sleep last night.. this is happen so many time..
i do remember when the worse night..
its suck.. sound funny... i just cant sleep..
and start dial everybody..
in Malaysia and out Malaysia..
honestly it suck.. i just think too much..
i need new book to read i guess.. try to think something nice or wonderful
but still.. i do sms few people i guess good in conversation.. but no reply...
yaahh.. friday night.. what you expect...
till.. i get sms from someone.. errrmm..
every words and sentences make me cry.. i was cry till 6 in da morning...
and i called this stupid.. but thank to god.. at least someone reply me and talk to me
even we far.... it help... friday night with tear...

11:11 AM

da sad thursday....

Posted by soffee

we gonna miss you brother...

few minute before check in..

da crazy!!!

8:11 AM

i just too crazy

Posted by soffee

mungkin dah gila kot... entah laa kenapa...
nak period kot.. errmmm... tak.. tak..tak..
the reason of the matter is... i just too much read book..
turn my self in to vampire life.. i don't know the life is exist or not..
but i just.. too love it...
since i get that book from time's book shop last week..
pagi petang siang malam aku di bayangi kehidupan vampire..
who care... maybe i just too much.. but i don't mind...
i get some space.. space to think how good to love and be loved..
believe or not.. i found someone.. he look like vampire for me...
lol.... sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just too much...
and so funny... everyday.. i tell him about the chapter on that book..
and now.. he don't mind i call him vampire.. not only calling him vampire..
he also do the same thing.. we call each other vampire.. and so excited...
hahahahahahaha...we did something at our phone..
we save each person number with same name...
guess what????????
VAMPIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


my version