dear life

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And I'm learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I’d love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too 

If you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I’d love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

If you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I’d love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

Deeper Conversation(let me..)

story about a 20th days ago.....

when question from my mouth... how much you miss me?

and da answer is.. a lot...

and again.. how much da much??

again answer from him... too much.. like da distance from Cyberjaya to Ampang.. Become much more like you walk from here to your place...

this is story about a 20th days ago.. and now.. the story is change... and not only the story..
the situation.. everything.. me, him or us!!!

hey... we change.. i cant use that question.. no more question from me.. no more.. not only question.. but no more answer from you...

sofee SAY...LOVE IS WHEN HE IS MEAN TO YOU AND YOU STILL WANT HIM, IT'S

WHEN HE IGNORES YOU AND YOU STILL LOVE HIM, IT'S WHEN HE LOVES ANOTHER

GIRL BUT YOU STILL SMLE AND SAY I'M HAPPY FOR YOU, WHEN ALL YOU REALLY

WANT TO DO IS CRY... LOVE? WE THINK ABOUT IT,SING ABOUT IT, DREAM ABOUT

IT, LOSE SLEEP WORRYING ABOUT IT. WHEN WE DON'T HAVE IT, WE SEARCH FOR IT.

WHEN WE DISCOVER IT, WE DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT. WHEN WE HAVE IT,

WE FEAR LOSING IT. IT IS THE CONSTANT SOURCE OF PLEASURE AND PAIN.

BE WE CAN'T PREDICT WHICH IT WILL BE FROM ONE MOMENT TO THE NEXT. IT IS A

SHORT WORD, EASY TO SPELL, DIFFICULT TO DEFINE, IMPOSSIBLE TO LIVE

WITHOUT. AND HERE, TO FORGET HIM IS LIKE TRYING TO REMEMBER

SOMEONE YOU NEVER MEET...

and here, i'm counting day to turn my self in a bad dream..

• Your best friend from high school just got engaged, and you are the first person she tells. How do you honestly feel?

Happy, but secretly a little nervous. It's a little strange to see people you grew up with getting married. You can't imagine getting married yet... but maybe in a year or to.

• What kind of guys are you interested in dating right now?

Someone that you can introduce your parents to... and maybe even imagine a future with. Stability and communication are the most important things for you right now.

• You're browsing around at a bookstore, and you notice the section of bridal magazines. What's your reaction?

Browse around a little bit - but then move on to Cosmo, Jane, and Glamour. They're better suited for your life, right now.

• Who's most important in your life right now, besides yourself?

The guy you're dating

• When it comes to guilty reality TV pleasures, you're all about...

The Bachelor, Queer Eye for the Straight Guy, and Blind Date.

• Think back to the last boyfriend you had (or the one you currently have). When fighting, did you (or do you) seriously consider leaving the relationship?
  

Occasionally, when things were at their worst

• Most of your past relationships lasted:

6-12 months

• When you consider getting married in the future, what do you usually think about the most?

How married life will be - what you two will do for each other, when you'll have kids, and how you'll keep your relationship happy.

DA ANSWER IS...

You're Almost Ready to Get Married, But Not Quite

No doubt that you've warmed up to the idea of marriage and life long love
You just aren't quite ready to follow up with your desires, yet.
You may be a bit young, or a bit commitment phobic... give it time.
Concentrate on guys who you can imagine being with next year. Forever can wait.

Rasa berat sangat.. Dalam hati ni, rasa sesuatu.. Yang tak boleh nak di keluarkan. Nak nangis belum tentu boleh hilang. Nak ketawa... Rasa macam menipu diri sendiri. Nak lari?? Tapi kemana... Fuhhh.. Sepi tu indah ke?? Indah ke macam ada bunga-bunga sakura gugur?? Sepi tu menyakitkan ke?? Macam jatuh scooter melambung...kebaboom cium jalan tar?? Atau sepi tu tanpa perasaan... Sepi pada aku?? Sunyi.. Tanpa ketawa dari adik-beradik.. Kosong macam rumah yang baru siap... Tanpa warna-warna yang ceria.. Mendung... Bagai awan yang sarat mengandung air... Hiba...Pedih..Macam kena cubit... Sebak.. ermmm.. Sebak.. Perasaan tu menyakitkan.. Sepi ke aku?? Sepi ke tanpa mummy tersayang? Sepi ke aku tanpa abang dan adik-adik? Sepi ke aku tanpa dia yang boleh di jadikan teman malam? Sepi ke aku bila hari-hari yang datang bertemankan buku-buku dan kerja?? Sepi ke kehidupan ni kalau tak pergi berhibur??? Itu sepi ke???? Tapi "SEPI" yang kat pawagam tu lain.. "SEPI" tu penuh dengan kasih sayang... Kasih sayang yang hilang dan datang... Kongsi sikit pasal "SEPI" dengan kamu semua.
Sepi (menurut sinopsis dari laman web rasmi) adalah sebuah kisah berkisar’kan tiga individu lelaki yang hidup di’bandar mengenal erti cinta, kehilangan & kesepian.

Sepi hati terjadi lagi
Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi
Biar senyum hadir di hariku
namun ini hanya ada di bibir
di bibir saja

Aku ini yang bisa mengerti
walaupun yang lain mau mengerti
Namun berat beban hidupku
biarkan saja
Biar saja hanya ku yang tahu

Dan, filem ini juga menampilkan pelakon-pelakon wanita yang bukan calang-calang. Afdlin Shauki dipasangkan dengan Vanida Imran & Nasha Aziz. Pelakon wanita utama lain adalah Eja & Baizura Kahar. Rozita Che Wan & Sazzy Falak juga ada sebagai pembantu. Walaupun filem ini dipenuhi dengan pelakon wanita yang terbaik di Malaysia, filem ini aku rasa lebih kepada filem yang berkisarkan kehidupan lelaki dalam dunia hari ini.

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua
Mesra bersama dilamun cinta
Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia

Mungkin juga semuanya salah ku
Terlalu mengharapkan cinta
Tapi sepi yang merasuk kalbu
Membawa angan melayang

Di dalam mimpi kita berdua
Mesra bersama dilamun cinta
Oh tetapi kenyataannya aku sedar kau ada dia

Adam adalah seorang chef muda yang berjaya — pakar dalam bidang pembuatan manisan (kek) untuk majlis perkahwinan tetapi masih bujang dan sedang mencari pasangannya sendiri. Kemudian, seorang lagi insan bernama Sufi yang berlari berbatu-batu sehari sebagai percubaan untuk melupuskan memori bersama isteri’nya yang telah meninggal dunia. Seorang lagi bernama Ariel (atau Khalif?) yang merupakan penggiat teater sedar yang pentas teater adalah tempat dimana masa silamnya mampu di selesaikan dan masa depannya mampu di lihat. All three stranfers are inevitably linked to a single dramatic moment that transforms their lives forever.


Dahulu kau mencintaiku
Dahulu kau menginginkanku….
Meskipun tak pernah ada jawabku
Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku….
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku…
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku….

Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu…

Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku

Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku

SEPI
Bisikku pada bulan
Kembalikan temanku
Kekasihku, syurgaku

Tanpa dia malam menemaniku
Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang biar malam ini kelam
Biar ia sepi sepertiku

MAN??? Thankful to GOD for created them. Such are good thing in this world for me. Maybe because I'm not gay. And maybe because I do need man to complete my day. Like someone said to me.. GOD created woman for man. And of coz man. They been create for woman.


What I want from someone we call man.. What?? Kinda stuck with that question sometime. I'm tired when I try get that awnser. Why?? I don't know.. Honestly. But why I cant get some awnser it's because sometime they treat us like shit. And make me hate them so much.

Rite now.. Now.. In my mind. What I want from man is... I wanna he had cute head.. With little bit hair. Kinda botak... But not botak like Riduan Hashim.. No... No...Not like him.. Don't get wrong. Wanna put my finger at his head. Wanna kiss his head. Thats it... Can I??



What else I want? I wanna he had nice smell. Something at his mouth, naturally. Without any perfume and any smell from tooth paste. Horny smell that I can get when I seat beside him. Smell I can get when I wake up early morning, when he drop me at my home... Smell... Smell.. The horny smell my nose can detect from them.. I luv that. Can I get???

I wanna he had sweet smile... Sweet smile.. Sweet smile.. Sweet skin. Sweet kiss. Manis... Manis... Manis.. Semua nya manis. Tak kisah laa dia kulit gelap pun. Asalkan manis. Tak payah laa bagi baby face, comey-comey,mata sepet cam cina... Rambut pacak-pacak... Kulit putih.. Tak nak!!!!!!


Wanna he had something n his mind. Plan for his life. Know what he want in this world. Not only fuck and suck!!! Tak nak laa kalau otak lembab. Asyik nak have fun. O'o.. I can't stay with man like this. Saya nak yang kuat kerja. Tak letih nak belajar benda baru. Saya tak suka orang malas... Malas... No...No.No..
I hate people lazy!!

I want he appreciate anything infront him.. I want he know how to treat woman. I wont lisent with reason. I hate that. No body can say no to me. Include him. You have to say yes for anything I request. You have to say yes. Treat me like doll and wont leave me when football fever come or when your fucking friend around. Don't leave me.. Please.... :(


Wanna he love me.. Pick me. Choose me. Lick me. Bite me.. Gosh!!!! Hahahahahahahaha... Wanna hot man. When you close to them. You can feel the warm skin. Such are heater.. Wow~ Lol... I'm kidding ok.. Hot.. Someone can heat you when you get cold. I wanna man like that. Tall than me it could be easy for him to cuddle me. When he tall, sure he got nice hand and arm... Errmmm... For me.. For me.. For me.. Only for me...


I wanna someone with chase.. Chase!!!! Not breast... I wont man with breast. Yaks!!!! Can I buy bra for you honey??? Come on.. Let woman with her breast, don't make 2 people wearing bra kissing each other. So please... Get chase not breast... Or maybe you want me ask milk from you??? Do you want that???




Ermmm... Not easy.. not easy.. But this is what I want. Now!!!! This is.. Kinda good man with good smell with sweet smile without breast. I want this!!! Man... Man.. Man.. Someone cant make me fool and someone wont be fool because of woman. Anyone out there????

Honestly i never knoe u like coffee and tea!

I try to think which part when I'm with U, U be are funny guy, and I do knoe that U

are weird, and not so sure U are friendly, no idea when U said U are recognisable.

I'm so shock when U tell people that u crazy bout food, surprise when U can go miles

searching for good food I do knoe like hell that U never like girls who says that

they love to lepak at mamak. And like U said mamak has no proper place to sit nor

their food is makan-able! I wanna tell you that U are egoism people and sound suck

when U hate egoistic people. Because U not sportsman, star & west thats why I do like

and try to understand U. Never knoe that Ur hero is Dr.M. "I'm picky with whom i mix

with"..(what ever, apa u cakap u selalu betul.. benci!) "FIRST IMPRESSION IS ALWAYS A

DIFFERENT PERCEPTION. Get knowing me! u wont regret it as i consider myself ISO 90002

certified! When u said u got ISO 90002", I wish when come to my apartment U can show

me. Not so sure other people knoe this or not but lucky U understand about

Ur mood... Yup true.. "when I'm moody then I'm really bad, I'll give a big NO tag to

people" I HATE YOU SO MUCH WHEN YOU MOODY.. COZ THAT TIME I SURE KENA SOUND WITHOUT

ANY REASON..IT'S HURT ME. "Take life to the fullest as we know life is short, every

moments are ours to cherish!" I like this words... Is it true?? Why u think something

like i think?? And when u talk about mistake.. True.. We have to learn from

mistake... I also do mistake.. And u still keep sounding me.. Why not U manja me...

:( U said "mistake are bound to happen, learning from it is a must! sometimes i just

wish i can turn back the clock, but there's ain't any perfectionist out there.Isn't it?

So Forgive the Forgiven..." I wish U do follow what U said... Tell me more... Tell

me other thing in Ur mind... Tell me.. Coz I'm not regret to knoe that... I think I

miss alot of thing when I saw Ur page.. Tell me.. Tell me.. Tell me please...