6:15 AM

I AM LOSER

Posted by soffee

what you gonna do when you have no enough money... but you have a lot of stuff and someone ask you out?


what you gonna do when the person you think can love you but finally scream and scold you everyday without any reason...

what is the best you can do?

are you gonna move out and pick all stuffs?

are you gonna run away back to your parents house?

but i have no mother.. i had one father with his new life.. father that i cant even share my story with...

and where should i go?

should i ask God take my life so i have new place to go??

6:04 AM

KALAU SEJUTA KALI BOLEH

Posted by soffee

kalau sejuta kali boleh, aku memang nak keluar pun dari rumah nih.. kau tak payah suruh atau sergah-sergah aku. tak payah maki hamun aku macam aku bodoh sangat... kau boleh cakap macam biasa... cakap macam manusia plastic.. suruh aje aku kluar, boleh aje aku buat..


kenkadang bila aku ingat semua sms dan bbm tu.. aku macam tak tahu aku nih isteri sah lagi atau tak.. aku dah delete message tu semua.. kalau kau send semua tu lagi, aku rasa memang patut lah aku nih pergi pejabat agama...

seorang ibu tak sanggup menasihati seorang anak untuk mengelak kan anak derhaka.. seorang isteri, yang tak punya kuasa.. masih bodoh duduk sebumbung walaupun ada hak untuk bersuara..

kalau sejuta kali boleh, aku nak keluar selama-lamanya dari rumah nih.. kalau sejuta kali boleh, aku nak putar dunia nih, supaya aku tak pernah kenal binatang macam kau!!

9:11 AM

MY HOUSE NOT A CAGE NOT EVEN ZOO

Posted by soffee

I'M CLEANING THE HOUSE COZ I WANTED TO LAY DOWN AT FLOOR, WALKING NAKED AT EVERY CORNER... I WANTED THE HOUSE LOOK LIKE A CASTEL FOR ME AND EVERYBODY. BUT I HAVE TO CLEAN IT UP EVERYDAY EVEN I HAVE ROOM MATE, HE SEEM LIKE A BIG BOSS NEVER CARE AND BOTHER TO GIVING A HAND... PRAY TO GOD THAT SOMETHING MIRACLE TO BREAK THE TELIVISION OR THE LAPPY COZ I AM SO SICK FACING HIM AT HOME!!! ;( OH DEAR LORD, I KNOW YOU LISTENING TO ME... I HOPE YOU CAN CHANGE MY HUSBAND. I JUST TOO TIRED CLEAN UP EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING HE LEFT WENT I'M OUT FOR WORK. I AM SO SICK GOING HOME SAW HIM AT COUCH LAY DOWN, SMOKING, EATING SNACK AND WATCHING MOVIE AT THE BIG SCREEN...DO YOU MIND TO SEND THE THUNDER THAT CAN MAKE HIS BIG SCREEN DAMAGE. SO THAT MIGHT BE, HE WILL GIVE HAND TO ME.. ;( (finger cross)

6:38 AM

HUSBAND

Posted by soffee

husband

the one you gonna ask for help

the one you gonna help till nothing bare you

the one will hug and cuddle you anytime even you hate it

the one always be next to you even you don't need it

husband

most importand person you gonna share your life

most loving man you wanted even he not like Jude Law

most room mate you miss when he not around

husband

you will cried for you will die for

you gonna hate but not so long

husband

that i always pray that he love me everyday

that i wish he know who i am

that i hope that he the best than other people around me

but husband...

he not just above, he sometime somehow more evil than murder!!!!

8:47 PM

Jar Of Hearts by Christina Perri

Posted by soffee


I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

8:00 AM

FREE

Posted by soffee

the life you talk about is.. life without me exist in
the life you wanted so badly is, the life between you,friends,family and career...
and there is no i in that life you talked about..

5:26 AM

help me coz i am lost...

Posted by soffee

how are you? did you fine? hows your day? did you miss me? did you doing fine out from me? huh...i have a lot question in my mind till i have no idea how to talk about it... i miss the conversation we had before.. conversation before we married.. seems like i stop knowing you and so do you...

i did read all old sms and chat msg did you send to me.. i did remember what you done before.. what ever you gave me.. what ever you promise me..i do remember..i do keep in my mind. but just of sudden.. i don't like to talk and show i am remember that..

i choose you coz i believe that you gonna love me till end of my life. you the one love me, crazy about me, will call me if you cant hear my voice one day, will find any solution to meet me.. and now, i don't see the man anymore..

how cant you love me like before. how cant you just love who i am? why don't you be next to me even i'm down and sick. why don't you say yes on me even i'm the one doing wrong...i miss you, i means..i miss the real you.. did everything end?? are we end this??