felt so bored... but i'm kinda of lovely girl today. wear red shirt... excited go to office. even i know today still like yesterday... nothing can change me even he there... errmmm... he so busy what else i can say. its ok.. no him life still go on. why so worried right? can finish cases so fast and make me turn my self to being bored silly girl.. was thinking what i can do if he my Mr. V today. where we both go.. did he still wanna hold my hand like the last night we had.. did he still wanna talk to me.. did we have super duper crazy day together... wonder..wonder..wonder.. but he to busy with the old man.. erkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can u just please replace me with him? shit!!! forget it.
my plan suppose to be walk with mak su and pak su... but they ready book ticket for movie. so, i cant join them.. never mind laa.. i still can walk alone. i was so excited.. and i know bukit bintang not the correct place for me. i will get hurt easy there. but i am so stubborn person.. my 1st step there... i saw 3 white man crossing road.. and i just ignoring them.. at my ear, abdullah was talking something dirty story and request.. what ever, i know ili not around u start being disgust man now..
and suddenly.. guess what.. 'excuse me, can you tell us how to go to bukit bintang plaza...' hahahahaha... the 3 white man ask me.. errmm.. i never bother to them.. not really focus.. but, since so free and abdullah sure late.. i just offering my self to help them.. because of me.. they change their trip to Bali. hahaha... see how psycho i am.. we talk, we walk.. we get know each others. everything just perfect.. we walk to get few things at law yat... and... i just pulse few second. ask my self.. my V day not so bad.. i date 3 man on the same time. we laugh, we eat, we talk and sharing story together... can u guys do it? can u have my moment? no right? a'ha... i just too lucky! thank god.. like i said before... no him life still go on...
Without you i live it up a lil more everyday.Without you i'm seeing myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When i watched you walk away
Well i never thought i'd say im fine without you.
Cause something changed you've been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that im ready to let you leave
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When i watched you walk away
Well i never thought i'd say im fine without you
I just want to be alone tonight
I just want to take a lil breather
i take a move.. moving my ass and steps..
to ili i inform.. that i'm gonna meet some one last 4 night...
its just coincident.. without planing..
surprise!!!! yes.. i done do it...
and, what the stupid thing i done is..
i just cant focus to that man..
even he hot.. even he got good smell.. even he tall.. even he prefect..
I GUESS!!!!
and the stupid thing is.. i just eating my mash mellow and enjoy the night with the hot coco
errmm.. i am stupid..
my heart want my self get out and continue the life like normal person
but my mind keep remind me about him
and my whole day which is 24hours with his shadow..
what the hell is this??? and i don't know...
i just want continue my life and be normal person
i want meet someone new.. i want have connection with new person
and i do want to be love and in love(this what i and mumu always said)
his shadow following me.. even at night(supposedly no shadow right?)
if last time i'll pray he get good life and happy there..
and now i still do the same thing.. yes, honestly...
i do want your life better.. and i don't want you down or regret...
but, on the same time i don't want replacing you coz for me..
nobody can be you.. which is.. you still part of me
and listen.. not replacing you doesn't mean.. you the one i want
i just cant do that and i want my life back without your shadow..
i want my mind stop remind me about you and my heart can accept anyone new
this is what i want.. not rushing.. but at least.. i can enjoy every moment in my life
even you there enjoy your new life with her... soon
i just cant sleep last night.. this is happen so many time..
i do remember when the worse night..
its suck.. sound funny... i just cant sleep..
and start dial everybody..
in Malaysia and out Malaysia..
honestly it suck.. i just think too much..
i need new book to read i guess.. try to think something nice or wonderful
but still.. i do sms few people i guess good in conversation.. but no reply...
yaahh.. friday night.. what you expect...
till.. i get sms from someone.. errrmm..
every words and sentences make me cry.. i was cry till 6 in da morning...
and i called this stupid.. but thank to god.. at least someone reply me and talk to me
even we far.... it help... friday night with tear...











